Dealing with a loss

God always has a purpose.  Maybe sometimes it's not what we had planned

Friday evening God work through me. He allow me to meet with a dear friend of mine that I haven't seen in years,  we did a girls night out,  went to the movies with friends, had an amazing dinner and talked about how God has changed my life. We laugh and remembered beautiful times.  I got home with a huge smile on my face,  told my husband all about it and greeted my dog that was sick with pneumonia for the past week.  But God had a different plan for me. Our dog was so bad that I even lay my hand over him and prayed that God will heal him. He was gasping for air as he looked at my for help. We rushed with him to the hospital which we had visited several times during that week,  the doctor rushed him to an oxygen chamber and talked to us.

At that time my plans where saving him, doing whatever it took to heal him, even without any money.  Unfortunately no money on earth could have saved him, his condition was worse and we had to make the hardest decision of our life. We said our good byes, petted him one more time and prayed to God that he will be with him the whole way. Wow! It was shocking!..  I mean I had the best time ever a few hours ago, I was doing what God wanted me to do, spreading his word and then this...ufff was tough.. My husband and I cried for 6 hours straight, we understood that he couldn't live like that anymore, that his sickness was not going to improve and it was time to let him go. But we where not ready. I didn't blame God even if i could, He was preparing the way for the past two weeks.  And I knew in my heart that all I needed was faith.

Losing someone or a family pet is devastating, No words can heal your broken heart. Sometimes selfishness comes in the way and blame takes over. Did I do enough? I didn't hug him enough? What else could we have done? 

But is not worth it, Condemnation  is like a road with no end and I will lead you to depression. Only seek refuge in the Lord, He knows our pains and sorrows.  He was on the cross suffering while his mother watched him die, that is even worse. God is good! he knows that I will miss him, He understands that our heart is broken but life keeps on going. And this will only make me stronger and along the way I will help somebody that loses a pet or a love one.  Day by day he heals my pain,  He rubs my heart and reassures me that our furry baby is with him with no more pain, healthy and he is watching over him

God has a very different plan from what we have in our mind. But he knows that if we obey,  let go, and let him heal us we will be ready for our purpose. At the end, I will see him again in heaven.